Finally!!!! They've been dating for like, 7 years! I'm so happy for them. The ceremony was absolutely beautiful. It was outside at the Cheney Mansion in Oak Park at 6:00 p.m. It was sunny but not too hot with a nice breeze. You could just feel the love radiating from (almost) everyone in attendance. (There were a few drama queens.) Everything went perfectly. Then came the reception, which was crazy and loud and hilarious because Ray was a Marine and is now in the Navy, so there were lots of military guys there. After some of the dance moves Ray was doing with the other guys, I wondered if perhaps Jen is questioning the sexual identity of her new husband.

I don't have any pics right now, so I will post them when I get them. That's a lot more interesting than me just rambling on about things.

BUT- I am very confused about Ryan. Still. He was a hit at the reception; his whole table loved him. It was nice because I could hang out with other people and not worry about him. As usual, he was just friendly when we were in public; he didn't even ask me to dance. He did tell me I looked nice, but isn't that kind of obligatory?

After the reception we stopped by my place for a little while, where we continued our Love Wins argument and then started in on healthcare and population control. I got all worked up (as usual), and he finally commented that he actually does agree with me sometimes, but just doesn't want to admit it because it's more fun to try to figure out my logic. He is logical, I am emotional. This can be very frustrating.

While we were at my place, Pete texted at like, 2 a.m. that he'd had a very interesting night. I asked why, he said it was funny, and I asked why again. Ryan saw what we'd been saying, and it was his turn to get all worked up. I think he was upset that Pete was texting so late in the first place, and then he started going on and on about how he knows Pete's type, and how Pete needs constant validation and attention and blah blah blah. Then Ryan said, "You can tell Pete to go (obscene comment)." Well, I was in a silly mood, so I texted Pete, "Ryan says you can go _____." Pete was not amused and made a threat, and then Ryan made a threat in return and I could not believe how ridiculous the whole thing was. Ryan just went on and on. We decided to go to his place, and Ryan continued to rant about Pete. So maybe he was jealous? I told him Pete and I are just friends, so that's probably not it. Who knows.

At Ryan's place we hung out at watched TV. We actually do agree on one thing- a strong dislike of Michael Vick. We were sitting close together on the couch, and I got the feeling he wanted to make a move. I won't go into details because it's just not exciting, but it seemed like he was waiting for me to do something. I tried to give him some signals, but I guess he just didn't get it, because nothing happened. I do not initiate, at least in this kind of situation. So I finally went home around 4. He hugged me twice, thanked me for a nice evening, and walked me to my car.

So I don't get it. I still have no idea what's going on between us. I'm afraid I may have messed things up after an incident last Wednesday, which I will not write about on the internet. You can call me if you want to hear about it. :) What sucks is that he will be out of town again, this time for a week. He leaves tomorrow for Memphis and won't be home till next Monday. So I'll have to deal with a whole week of wondering what's going on. But at this point, I think we are just friends, which is fine. I do enjoy hanging out with him, and I'm okay with it just being that. But I need to know so I know if it's okay for me to be seeing other guys. It's making me crazy!!!