So today I was listening to that Kenny Chesney song, Beer in Mexico (because I heart country music). And I could really relate...
I'm freaking out about turning 25. I'm not sure why. I think because I always thought that being 25 would be the best it could get. Halfway through your 20's- old enough to be established in your job and have a little money, young enough to still be fun and fabulous. So now 25 is here. Is this as good as it will get? Will everything go downhill from here?
Besides that, my life is not how I planned it would be at 25. I know that things do not always go as planned, but I don't think my goal of being married by 25 was that unreasonable. I guess I actually did come close twice (TJ gave me a ring and everything when I was pregnant that I ended up throwing back in his face; Chuck claimed he wanted to marry me and was making plans to have "the talk" with my dad when I found out he was sleeping with another girl (See previous posts. Actually, don't, because it's embarrassing.)). Am I allowed to do double parenthesis? I'm a big fan of them. Anyway, I always figured I'd be married and on my way to having a family by now. I don't want to be old when I have kids. And I want like, 5 (I want to adopt at least one AIDS orphan or foster child), so it's not like I can wait till I'm in my late thirties to start.
As much as I try to plan it, I have no idea where my life is going. "So I'll just sit right here, and have another beer in Mexico..."
I'm freaking out about turning 25. I'm not sure why. I think because I always thought that being 25 would be the best it could get. Halfway through your 20's- old enough to be established in your job and have a little money, young enough to still be fun and fabulous. So now 25 is here. Is this as good as it will get? Will everything go downhill from here?
Besides that, my life is not how I planned it would be at 25. I know that things do not always go as planned, but I don't think my goal of being married by 25 was that unreasonable. I guess I actually did come close twice (TJ gave me a ring and everything when I was pregnant that I ended up throwing back in his face; Chuck claimed he wanted to marry me and was making plans to have "the talk" with my dad when I found out he was sleeping with another girl (See previous posts. Actually, don't, because it's embarrassing.)). Am I allowed to do double parenthesis? I'm a big fan of them. Anyway, I always figured I'd be married and on my way to having a family by now. I don't want to be old when I have kids. And I want like, 5 (I want to adopt at least one AIDS orphan or foster child), so it's not like I can wait till I'm in my late thirties to start.
As much as I try to plan it, I have no idea where my life is going. "So I'll just sit right here, and have another beer in Mexico..."
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