This morning, C showed up in my classroom wanting to apologize. "I'm sorry I've been so mean to you at work," she said. "I'm going to stop doing that. I really hope you have a great day." That sounds nice, right? Except she hasn't been mean to me at work. Also, she said it in this really insincere, smug, flippant way... the word that came to mind in the moment was Stepford. It was weird. I just nodded and said, "Ok, thanks." Then, I saw her in the hall a few minutes later, and she gave me this huge, fake smile and said, "Have a wonderful day!" and walked away humming. I know this doesn't sound creepy in writing, but it totally was. She sounded like someone who was mentally ill. I think I know what's going on here.
When her fiance cheated, she felt really guilty for being mad. She even started therapy so she could get over it. She told him she forgave him, and tried to convince herself she'd forgiven him, but it was still an issue as recently as March (the last time I talked to her). She was still angry about it and would throw it back in his face occasionally. I think the same thing is happening with me. She has convinced herself that she is the victim. At first she was angry, and she used that as an excuse to say all that awful stuff. Now she's moved on to the "I'm a perfect Christian so I have to forgive her" stage. What will happen is that she'll try to convince herself that she's forgiven me for all the horrible things I've done to her, but every once in a while she'll let her anger out in a really disturbing way.
You can tell her niceness is forced and not at all sincere. I also noticed that she just said she was going to stop being mean to me at work. So she's going to continue stalking me outside of work? That Facebook thing still has me creeped out, but I don't care enough to do anything. Although there is this evil little part of me that wants to text her about it just to stir things up and make her more miserable. This is why I need to keep praying about this situation; I really am a mean person.
In other news, one of my students called me a b**** and is suspended. Another two students got in a fight that they didn't get to finish, so I'm afraid things are going to erupt at any moment in my classroom. One of my students might be a baby daddy at the age of 12. Two more students got sent home today after fighting/throwing food at each other at lunch. Things are busy and work is tiring.
When her fiance cheated, she felt really guilty for being mad. She even started therapy so she could get over it. She told him she forgave him, and tried to convince herself she'd forgiven him, but it was still an issue as recently as March (the last time I talked to her). She was still angry about it and would throw it back in his face occasionally. I think the same thing is happening with me. She has convinced herself that she is the victim. At first she was angry, and she used that as an excuse to say all that awful stuff. Now she's moved on to the "I'm a perfect Christian so I have to forgive her" stage. What will happen is that she'll try to convince herself that she's forgiven me for all the horrible things I've done to her, but every once in a while she'll let her anger out in a really disturbing way.
You can tell her niceness is forced and not at all sincere. I also noticed that she just said she was going to stop being mean to me at work. So she's going to continue stalking me outside of work? That Facebook thing still has me creeped out, but I don't care enough to do anything. Although there is this evil little part of me that wants to text her about it just to stir things up and make her more miserable. This is why I need to keep praying about this situation; I really am a mean person.
In other news, one of my students called me a b**** and is suspended. Another two students got in a fight that they didn't get to finish, so I'm afraid things are going to erupt at any moment in my classroom. One of my students might be a baby daddy at the age of 12. Two more students got sent home today after fighting/throwing food at each other at lunch. Things are busy and work is tiring.
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