I am unhappy at work this year.
There are a lot of reasons that I won't go into, but it's hard going to work every day. I've become one of those people who lives for the weekends. And on Sunday nights, I feel panicky about going back on Monday.
I keep trying to squash those emotions and just suck it up and get through it. I tell myself it could be worse. (Because it really could be!)
But I'm reading "Rising Strong" by Brene Brown, and she talks about not comparing suffering. She recommends writing a "shitty first draft" where you're just honest about your emotions, and in doing that, I realized there are A LOT of things bothering me. So I am not crazy, and I should stop feeling guilty about being unhappy (as long as I don't cross that line and start wallowing). Writing really does help you figure out how you're feeling!
Here are the things I came up with to help me get through it this year:
Assume positive intentions.
Try not to take it out on my students. Be kind and patient. Try to think of some ways to make the curriculum more interesting.
Be as organized and prepared as possible for my writing class.
Make my personal life so awesome that I always have something to look forward to.
Keep running- endorphins.
Consider a change for next year.
In the meantime, I apologize to the people who have to put up with me for the next eight months. I will try not to complain too much. But if I don't seem like myself, this is why.
There are a lot of reasons that I won't go into, but it's hard going to work every day. I've become one of those people who lives for the weekends. And on Sunday nights, I feel panicky about going back on Monday.
I keep trying to squash those emotions and just suck it up and get through it. I tell myself it could be worse. (Because it really could be!)
But I'm reading "Rising Strong" by Brene Brown, and she talks about not comparing suffering. She recommends writing a "shitty first draft" where you're just honest about your emotions, and in doing that, I realized there are A LOT of things bothering me. So I am not crazy, and I should stop feeling guilty about being unhappy (as long as I don't cross that line and start wallowing). Writing really does help you figure out how you're feeling!
Here are the things I came up with to help me get through it this year:
Assume positive intentions.
Try not to take it out on my students. Be kind and patient. Try to think of some ways to make the curriculum more interesting.
Be as organized and prepared as possible for my writing class.
Make my personal life so awesome that I always have something to look forward to.
Keep running- endorphins.
Consider a change for next year.
In the meantime, I apologize to the people who have to put up with me for the next eight months. I will try not to complain too much. But if I don't seem like myself, this is why.
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